It is not a secret. I love food. I love looking at it. I love thinking of it. I love making it. And you tell me to keep slim. Mission impossible. From my youngest age, where my female hormones kicked in and rounded my shapes, I remember being in love with bread, pasta, spinach pies and chocolate cakes. There was always a reason to bake or cook and invite friends over. Sitting in my childhood’s kitchen, mixing flavors and spices while discussing world issues with my closest friends are deep anchored memories.
My relationship to food is a mystery but not a totally strange one. Throughout the years, food become also a remedy for boredom, for unhappy thoughts, a place that I knew would provide me with warmth, comfort and also gratification after a long tiring day (how many times didn’t I hide chocolate in the cupboards and then binge on them late night, between baby shifts and sleepless nights?).
Bad habits grow and stick like caramel. It takes tremendous effort, concentration, will power, focus, and stamina to break them, to live without them and finally to replace them by better ones. It can take years. Don’t believe anyone who says habits die after 7 days. They have no clue what they are talking about.
Am still struggling but I have found a way to sneak behind them.
Last year, at the peak of my weight (I had the same weight than when I delivered my daughter and that was without being pregnant; that’s when you realize that you have lost control and that some habits were just taking over), Facebook started sending me suggestions about a group called Whole 30 ( FB must be the biggest spy on this planet, how else would it know about my long terme diet struggle? :)).
Whole 30 is basically a detox plan that lasts 30 days. The rules are simple; you avoid certain food products for 30 days, which is the period your body needs to detox and get rid of bad habits (hmm). It also is meant to help you deal with your sugar dragon (later about that; it never goes completely away), get rid of toxins, clean your organism. The product groups are : Grains, dairy, sugar, alcohol. Eat everything that is whole and not processed. Sounds easy?
Well, I did it for 6 months. Lost 9 Whole kilos. Felt amazing. Light. In control. Deprived from the constant need of food. Ate because I was hungry. I managed to stick to the plan for this long because it became easier and easier. A way of life. I didn’t think of calories, or counting. I knew what I could eat and what I shouldn’t be looking at.
Unfortunately Came Christmas.
One gingerbread cookie after another throw me slowly back to the crazy cycle of sugar addiction. It became harder and harder to say no. And my body didn’t listen to me. My cravings got back.
6 months later I am finding a middle ground between Whole 30 and letting myself indulge. A gourmet eater will never cease to love eating. But I can take “Whole 30/15/45” breaks in between and thus calm my rollercoaster.
What is your plan to stay slim? I would love to hear about it 🙂
For more info on Whole 30.